Christmas is just a few days away, even though it really doesn’t feel like Christmas for some reason. Christmas isn’t my holiday anyway, so I really don’t go out of my way to decorate, etc.
My family is actually going to be celebrating Christmas on New Years this year. New Years is actually my birthday so its going to be a bit strange. Why the lateness in Christmas? My brother works out of town, on the North Slope, and won’t be home for Christmas, so we delayed it a week for him. It should be fun, we can hit the after Christmas sales for those last minute gifts, heh!!
So I haven’t been blogging much lately. I’m going to add a touch of the personal life here, so you have been forwarned that this may turn… female chatty.
The older I get the rougher it gets for me to deal with winter in Alaska. I’m not a winter outdoorsy type of person so the winter causes me to hibernate, literally. That, along with the length of darkness we have in the winter, it really takes its tole. I tend towards depressed/lazy/procrastinator’ish and don’t want to do much of anything. Due to not wanting to do anything I start gaining weight, which also makes me even more lazy, etc.
I don’t need anti-depressants, I don’t make that statement out of pride or from an ego driven reason. I don’t have the markers for depression that would require meds, this is per a Behavior Health friend that I have spoken to about the problem. The fact that I would have her cracking up every time I talked to her is a good sign that meds would only do me damage instead of good.
So with that said what would help? Well, there are a few things but I literally have to pry myself out of my house to do the easiest one… going to the gym. I started today actually, and looked forward to it. ::: pats self on back :::
The other thing that would help is to get me out of Alaska. That plan is in the works, and the date that we have set so far is summer of 2012, Oregon has been the chosen location thus far, Bend to be exact. Since I’m single, its a bit scary to be moving away from a state that I have known 98% of my life. My brother, his wife and by then 2 kids, will also be moving, so I will not be completely alone but it’s still very scary. The other scary part is finding work where ever we do move to, my brother will have his North Slope job but I will have to find something.
Even though there are a few obstacles to moving… I’m EXCITED and hope and pray that it all works out for the best.